Now that my stay in France has turned slightly more permanent… as in I have no idea when and if I will ever leave… I have had this new take on French. To be honest I was lazy when I … Continue reading
I came to France with the idea I would be here just one year. I wanted to learn a new language, experience a different culture, and most importantly grow. I have to say, that on my last day of au pairing, I can look back and say I have done pretty well. The past 10 months have been filled with up and downs. Most of the time I was sitting here wondering why I am so lucky, but there were also days I wondered why I ever chose to do this. Although my French is still completely rubbish, I really feel like I have gotten the most from this experience so far.
I never thought that today would be like this. I thought I would be filled with sadness to leave a family I cared so deeply about. Sad to say though, although I will miss the kids dearly, today is nothing what I imagined. With the feeling that I can’t go fast enough from the parents, it really makes me upset about all the time and effort spent. I understand that they are mad I am leaving but I do wish this could have ended on a better note.
On the other side, I cannot believe I am moving tomorrow into the center of Paris into my very own place. I havent even wrapped my head around it yet I don’t think. I have never lived alone, let alone in PARIS. Ahhhh. I can’t wait. I am really looking forward to the next chapter in my life. I have faith that everything will work out. And hey, if it doesn’t it was an experience, right?
Today I dyed my hair. Nothing monumental, right? Wrong. For some odd reason going from my beautiful California locks of blonde to this dreary dark shade of brown has really depressed me. Yes I realize it is my natural color but ugh really? I know I sound like such a girl right now but I don’t think it is actually the fact I dyed my hair. I think it is the fact that things are changing to quickly right in front of me.
19 days. That’s right… just 19 days left in the only country I know. Dont get me wrong–I am excited beyond belief, but I am also more scared than I have ever been. I know that it will be the time of my life and I will never be the same after it. Which, in itself is the scary part… nothing will be the same. I love the life I have now. Amazing friends, amazing family, amazing place to live. So why change it right? Well surprisingly all of that is not enough to hold me back. I cannot wait to experience this next year. There is no way I can even wrap my head around how incredible this opportunity is going to be. I just can’t believe I am actually doing this. July 13th I will be on my way to my new home– leaving behind all that I have know and all that is familiar. I am taking a leap. And I am ready…